Yes, it isn’t that easy to follow what you tell others to do. But not impossible; especially when you know everything will turn out right. Nevertheless, the prospect of being that truthful is downright scary.
I know I keep on shouting about how you should be clear about your actions/words, and never let anything deviate you from the ‘right’ path – but what if by being that truthful, you’ll hurt someone really precious, although for a short period. What if you’re scared they won’t love you the same? What if you don’t want it to happen at all?
The choice is hard to make, that I know; but I have to make it. And I have decided to tell the truth (no I haven’t murdered anyone), and let the chips fall where they may. Why so? I’ll give you some major reasons why:
2. It is just a matter of a few days that things will go back to normal, because honestly, it isn’t that big a deal.
3. Most importantly, I don’t want to do anything wrong or something that might catch up with me later. In my short life, I’ve experienced enough of nonsense to last me a lifetime, and I don’t want to handle anymore; especially not because of my own deeds.
4. I’ve chosen my way of life, and I am living it. Now I want to put it to a test whether it really works or not.
So it’s decided– on Wednesday, I’ll take the plunge. I have to.
You know, two years back was a very depressing time for me. It was like a black hole – a one way trip, from where there was no coming back. But my parents pulled me out of that place, and I can never thank them enough for it. But I know I’d hurt them a lot back then, and I don’t want to do it again.
Hence, this resolve. I’ll surely share my experience here [probably on Thursday, since I’ll be too preoccupied on Wednesday]. I really hope it works out – and then I’ll tell you what this was all about [after which, I’m sure you’ll laugh your head off]. But please wish me luck!
Going to prepare myself now. Do send in the good wishes. I need them. Really.