The Girl In The Mirror


Childhood is not from birth to a certain age and at a certain age.
The child is grown, and puts away childish things.
Childhood is the kingdom where nobody dies.
–Ā  Edna St. Vincent Millay

 

I know I’ve spoken a lot about my birthday which is due on October 5th, mainly because it is my sixteenth. But I don’t think I’m actually turning that age. At least, I don’t feel like it.

Every time I look at myself in the mirror, only then do I see the sixteen-years-old girl I’m supposed to be. Or when I’m talking to my kid sister (who is five, by the way). Or when I’m taking care of things, or doing things like cooking breakfast, or going around the city (which, unfortunately, includes going to the tuition and back).

But the rest of the time, I’m still . . . . me. The same person who loves sitting in front of the television watching ‘Bones‘ and ‘Teen Wolf‘ simultaneously. The one who always delays math homework because she finds it dull due to the lack of colours in the textbook. That is who I am— and I somehow get the feeling that once I step into my seventeenth year, I would never be able to be the same.

I mean, everyone expects me to ‘grow up’, right? Be responsible, practical and, in some ways, heartless?

Newsflash: I am responsible! I take care of everything around me if it needs to be looked after. I am ready for change, but not the ones who would ask me to abandon my ways of life and be something I’m not. I admit I cannot stay like this forever, but some things do not change overnight. Especially not with me.

I don’t fear anything; not even death. Then why is it that the fear of stepping into the Unknown is driving me nuts? I guess I know why.

Because I want to stay forever young. Like Peter Pan. šŸ™‚

Forget them Wendy, forget them all. Come with me where you’ll never, ever have to worry about grown up things again!

And I can easily blame this song of One Direction for it! šŸ˜‰ Here’s what I’m talking about (it isn’t an official video, but the song is the one that matters, so… ;))

 

It feels like inside my heart and mind, I’m still the innocent, dazed, nine-year-old girl who was capable of having fun in every mundane situation; and will continue to be like that till the end of time.

Because growing up doesn’t mean detaching yourself from life itself. And being a child in your heart is an impeccable way to experience the concealed joys of life. šŸ™‚Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā 

Love,

Snigdha ā¤

 

 

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10 thoughts on “The Girl In The Mirror

  1. Some are like water some are like the heat, some are a melody and some are the beat. Sooner or later they all will be gone………why don’t they stay young? šŸ™‚

  2. We say that today you’re fifteen and in three weeks you’ll be sixteen, but the truth is you’re 6% fifteen and 94% sixteen. And at any time in your life you’re going to be between ages like that, a gradual process. So why WOULD you feel a sudden change? And the answer is you wouldn’t. And you don’t. No one feels different when turning another age.

    As for the whole responsibility and feeling of growing up . . . yeah. I’m feeling that too. I’m going to be eighteen here! I definitely feel it. šŸ˜‰

  3. That’s why I have a liking for Peter Pan. Never Never Land sounds pretty awesome. šŸ˜€

    Bur in all seriousness, I think it is a good thing to keep some of the childlike qualities alive as we age. I think it is great when people can remain a kid at heart.

    Great post!

      • Hey, adults can enjoy life too! Actually, enjoying life with a mature perspective is way more enjoyable than enjoyment that comes from a young child’s carefree attitude.

        Or maybe that’s what you’re saying. Maybe “kid at heart” just means that you have some joy while you’re an adult, and we’re all saying the same thing. But it still is a different and more satisfying joy.

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